This is a random post, readers.

At night I have been having difficulty sleeping. My brain won't seem to be quiet! Anybody ever have that problem? I learned how to hypnotize myself a few weeks back, its kind of easy, and works... only worked that one time though. Last night, because I was exhausted and my brain was not very cooperative in the sleep department, I took a sleeping pill. It is about 24 hours later, and the sleeping pill is still working its magic! So when I feel kind of like this... where my feet and legs go tingly, my eyes cross... everything becomes a little clearer, and fuzzier, at the same time. I am 25 (and a half), I'm out of graduate school, living at home with my parents and brother (when he is there) and have no 'big' job for the fall. But this will be the first time I dont go back to anywhere in August. No school, etc etc. I understand, now, what people mean when they say that in the real world, time doesn't really matter. So it doesn't really matter in my life right now that it is August 1... school for about everyone in the world starts in 2-3 weeks, and i have nowhere to be.

I live based on, you know, having motivation... having something to live for, a goal, a destination. Even though I know very well that it isn't about the destination, it's about the drive there. But it cant be about the drive if you're not going anywhere... so where am I going? (Dave Matthews asked the same question). I wish I knew.

I thought up the title for this blog one day a month or so ago when I was out with my stepdad, I think we were going to get food from somewhere. I didnt take my wallet or phone or keys or anything, I was the passenger. And I was wearing a brown sundress I bought at wal-mart. I had my feet up on the dashboard, the windows were down, the sun was going down. It was perfect. I felt at one with the world. We got home, I didnt even wear shoes for this venture, and I walked through the grass, barefoot, to go back inside the house. That's when 'Barefoot in the Grass' hit me. I've worked at a shoestore for 9.5 years, so being barefoot is sort of a no-no in the foot health world. But I love it (as long as there are no bees). It feels so good, especially if you're in a mood where you feel connected to the world... connected to all life, and existence.

Hopefully i'll come up with more interesting thoughts later, reader.
--I'm just... alone. In the world. I feel alone. But I guess we're all alone. But if we're all alone, and we all know it, why can't we help each other with it??
---- Ana Remni